Stand in love, Rise in love, but do not fall in love.

" A mature person has the integrity to be alone. 

And when a mature person gives love, he gives without any strings attached to it: he simply gives. And when a mature person gives love, he feels grateful that you have accepted his love, not vice versa. 

He does not expect you to be thankful for it – no, not at all, he does not even need your thanks. He thanks you for accepting his love. And when two mature persons are in love, one of the greatest paradoxes of life happens, one of the most beautiful phenomena: they are together and yet tremendously alone; they are together so much so that they are almost one. 

But their oneness does not destroy their individuality, in fact, it enhances it: they become more individual. 

A mature person does not fall in love, he rises in love. The word ’fall’ is not right. Only immature people fall; they stumble and fall down in love. Somehow they were managing and standing. 

They cannot manage and they cannot stand – they find a woman and they are gone, they find a man and they are gone. They were always ready to fall on the ground and to creep. They don’t have the backbone, the spine; they don’t have that integrity to stand alone.

Two mature persons in love help each other to become more free. There is no politics involved, no diplomacy, no effort to dominate. How can you dominate the person you love? Just think over it. 

Domination is a sort of hatred, anger, enmity. 

How can you think of dominating a person you love? You would love to see the person totally free, independent; you will give him more individuality. 

That’s why I call it the greatest paradox: they are together so much so that they are almost one, but still in that oneness they are individuals. 

Their individualities are not effaced – they have become more enhanced. 

The other has enriched them as far as their freedom is concerned. Immature people falling in love destroy each others’ freedom, create a bondage, make a prison. Mature persons in love help each other to be free; they help each other to destroy all sorts of bondages. And when love flows with freedom there is beauty. When love flows with dependence there is ugliness." 

Source: Tantric Transformation, by Osho

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Couldn't have said or written this better myself! 

I agree with every single word.

OneLove! 

2 years 6 months and 3 days

For how long is it going to be this way?

I miss you more and more each day.

When the sunny skies turn from blue to gray,

I can't help but wonder just what you would say?

I wonder if you know how many lives you have touched,

Do you know that people here love you so much?

Can you even know how many dreams you made come true,

Or if you can hear the voices saying I love you?

Do you know how many lives you have changed,

And how many lives you completely rearranged?

I wish I could have just one more year,

Because I can't picture the rest of my life without you here.

Just another chance to spend the night, and share a laugh,

Another day for you to ask me why life has to be this rough.

"Anchocheeee", oh how I miss the sound of that,

Days when you called me out for help or just for you to tell me not to eat so much, I'll get fat. 

Do you know you're greatly missed by us all?

Just one more time I want to hear you're voice when I call out your name.

Just one more laugh, one more time to see you walk through the door

Another smile, another story, another hug, another day...Just one more.

OneLök//ONE LOVE Shmoozi  

We change, we wait. Looking at the mirror.

You'd be surprised at how many friends of yours disappear when you've finally awaken and begin to speak on the bullshit that been accepted as "normal" in this world.
Do you want to find out who is here to progress with you and who is here to hold you back?
Then, be different, be positive, be compassionate, be a free thinker, welcome all possibility beyond the limited beliefs. Become the black sheep, the activist, the "radical" thinker, the crazy one.
Be the person that just can't stop telling the truth regardless of the ill stares. That is when you will know who is venomous to your mental and spiritual growth and is not.
Be the world you want to live in. I believe in reflections.
The goodness you find in others, is in you too. The faults you find in others, are your faults aswell. After all, to recognize something you must know it. The possibilities you see in others, are possible for you too. The beauty you see around you, is your beauty. The world around you is a reflection, a mirror showing you the person you are. To change you world, you must change yourself. 
To blame and complain will only make matters worse. Whatever you care about, is your responsibility; lovers, friends, work, all your life choices. What you see in others, shows You!
Truly see the best you see in others, and you will be the best. Give to others, and you'll give to yourself. Appreciate beauty, the beauty in the hideous and repulsive and you will be beautiful. Admire creativity, and you will be creative.
Love, and you will be loved.
Seek to understand, and you will be understood. Listen, and your voice will be heard. Show your best face to the mirror and you will be happy with the face looking back at you!!
As long as you are genuine and true towards yourself, you will find serenity and truth in the world. Sadly sometimes some people you consider a part of your life, that you care about can't and wont handle the real, true and honest you. They will push you away. That is okay, don't dwell on it. Let those people go, when you think about them, feel the love you have for them within your self in your heart and share that love in silence. And just hope that they will feel it, the warmth of someone caring for them, even if they can't handle your love up close.
One day you will realize that in life there is a role for everyone you meet. Some will test you, some will use you, some will love you and some will teach you. But the ones who are truly important are the ones who bring out the best in you.
They are the rare and amazing people who will remind you why it's all worth it!

now lift your eyes to the sun

I know it's hard. Trying to cope with the past. Trying to come to terms with the present. Trying to erase the negativity and focus on positivities. Sometimes getting out of bed and putting on a smile in the morning is all we can manage. But know this;
You are beautiful. You are worth it.
There are going to be better tomorrows that will make up for the disappointments.
Just look for the silver lining, and look for that hope.
Listen to Music!
Hold on to those real friends and forget about the ones who let you down.
Take a road trip!
Breath. Laugh. Then cry and laugh even harder. Don't keep it bottled up.
Find your passion, make it you life.
Be yourself and show the world your talent/s.
You are here for a purpose, you may not ever know what your purpose is. But know that you influence and effect people you meet without putting in an effort, just by being you and being alive.
No matter how many times life has disappointed you, don't ever give up on the beauty in the world, and the beauty in yourself.
Look at the stars and the moon at night. Feel the sun during the day.
And no matter what happens in your life, don't ever give up on Love!!
Because there is always someone out there who will love you for you, or who already loves you for you. Always.

Love is key.

that soul touching feeling

I love music, depending on how I'm feeling or what is going on in my life during a period of time, a day or an hour, music always tends to boost that feeling I'm having. Either its love, despair, loneliness, hate , happiness, dancing mood and everything in between.

I listen to everything and beyond from rock to pop, to funky soul, spanish , persian, r.n.b to Indie folk (singer/ songwriter).

For a couple of years the one person who has really touched me and my soul through his music has been John Mayer. I have experienced his lyrics and guitar playing as divine, until his last album which didn't quite "woo" me, maybe just 1 or 2 songs.

Before him, I was really into soul and r.n.b music, mostly listened to John Legend, Alicia Keys, Musiq Souldchild and etc
John Mayer made me discover more and more singer/songwriters throughout the years, and it has come to my realization that this type of music touches me and gives me that soul touching feeling that I really can't explain. I can maybe say that it feels like a kind of pure and "real" music.

The artists that are giving me this type of feeling are, Josua Radin, William Fitzsimmons, Ray Lamountagne, David Gray, James Blake, Bon Iver, Damien Rice, Ed Sheeran, James Vincent McMorrow and many many more, I just mentioned a few of them.
For the last year and a half I've been listening to a lot of Mumford & Sons because I felt like I really could relate to their lyrics.
They gave me that "wraahh" feeling but in a good way in my own opinion :)

With all this said, I want to tell you about this young man I discovered last fall, he first became noticed when he auditioned for the australian idol, then he disappeared for a couple of years and came back with a new look and his own music. This young man gives me that feeling which I get from listening to John Mayer that type of divine and raw feeling, the name of this man is Matt Corby. 

The first song I heard with him was Brother acoustic version, and it blew me away, so I started to go through his music on youtube and the songs that really caught my attention were Made of Stone and Lonley Boy. 
My other favorite songs with Matt are Untitled , Soul's a fire, Breathe, My false and Big Eyes.
Luckily a couple of weeks after I discovered him, I found out he was on a European tour and in a little town 20 min from where I live.
I just had to go his show, after the show I was speechless and blown away, his performance live is out of this world, unexplainably beautiful.
I can sum it up by saying; It was a fabulous musical experience.

3 days ago he released one of his new songs called Resolution.
Enjoy :)

John Mayer! 

John Mayer, half man half amazing.

Matt Corby!

Matt Corby, I took this picture. (:

To Whom It May Concern

This one is for all the hopeless wanderers. 


Life is very strange, no matter how you twist and turn it. 
Very strange. 
For example; an indescribable fact that we are all made of the same substance as the most intelligent, creative and amazing life forms in the universe. Additionally we are a complex of exactly the same material as the highest mountains on earth and the brightest stars in our galaxy.

To begin with, I wonder why are we so overly impressed and interested in the great deeds and material things?
When it's the tiny things that together make the big things possible! 
Why do we all try create our own little worlds, where we can imagine that we have complete track of our existence? When we can only be absolutely certain that we don't.
Why do we continue to nag about the most important thing is to be yourself!? 
But finding ourselves being awkwardly alike in almost everything in life. 
Why do children believe in fairies? When adults don't. 
And why do we so often catch ourselves hung upon things that we don't agree on?
When it's the differences that make life interesting. 
Half of the world is upside down, so there's no reason that we should agree on everything. 
Why do we choose to argue and fight when emotions run high? When it less dangerous and much more fun and relaxing to dance or just stop in the heat of the moment, take a deep breath and listen to good music. 

Our species is fully occupied by appearence. We all have blinders on and only see what we think we want to see. When we finally open our eyes, we are most probably shocked by how blind we've been when we looked at the world and got it to match our own little plans. 
With blinders off, we can look at ourselves and ask factual questions about the universe and our place in it. 
In other words, the meaning of Life. 

What is the meaning of Life? 
It is often said that "life is a journey", but where? 
Some say that life is to seek knowledge. 
Some say life has no meaning, it just "is". 
Then there those who believe that we are only here to raise a family and pass our family name on to the next generation. 
But, which is true? 
Maybe all of them... 

The 'theme' that rings through all these theories of life is Love. 
Love is the powerful and enduring force that brings real meaning to our daily life. 
Don't misunderstand me now, I don't mean romantic kisses, hugs and smoochi stuff even if that is quite wonderful. 
The love I'm talking about is the fire that burns within us all, the inner warmth that prevents us from freezing in despair of winter.
Love for Life!! 
That feeling which gives you pleasure and makes you realize that some things in life are worth dying for, but even better worth living for.
Love for life makes us want to help others just because it feels good. 
Remember to take care of yourself to be the best of You for the ones you care about and tell the ones you care about/love to take care of themselves for you, so you all can be the best of who you all are individually for each other. 

The truth is that we are often are so focused on what we are doing, that we just continue walking to the direction where our nose is pointing. 
What are we really doing? 
Our time is full of distractions, impossible deadlines and difficult priorities. 
We run and run to get to a perfect point in life, but then what? 
Some describe it as; "it's just like when you drive all the way to the store, get out of the car, walk into the store and while at the store, you forget what you were going to get" 
So many of us start with dreams of a wonderful and comfortable free life, but usually we end up far away from what we imagined it to be. 
Sometimes you realize this when you get old and when you can't start over or do anything about it.

Here are some advice from a young woman who still is trying to find her path in life, Me; 

It's quite unlikely that you will one day swim in a glorified light, where you are in a heavenly revelation and find the true meaning of life, and you will certainly not find it on TV nor on any website.
The best way is to pull back and take the time to ponder the big questions.
The exercise is not difficult, it's just about being honest and real towards yourself. 
For some it's about finding beautiful and true moments in life and then make a plan. But for others, it can feel like staring into the abyss. 
Thinking can make your brain swell and become dangerously huge, it's worth it. 

You might realize what it is that YOU really want, but can't quite get to it.
Suddenly, it strikes you. Just like when you are half way to school and you remember you forgot your phone at home. 

Once you realize what you are passionate about and what you want to do, DO IT! 
You can not afford to waste one precious second.
Follow your dreams.
We are all born with tremendous potential. But sadly most of us are lazy and preoccupied with what others may think or fear of change that we never dare to stretch out our wings and realize what we are capable of. 
What's important is that you do your own thing, so that YOU are happy, no matter what it is as long as you feel good, genuinely good, not that good feeling you get by injecting substances into your body.

Meanwhile, remember whatever you do, mistakes are a part of life. Don't waste any time to torment yourself for the past. 
Once you are determined to follow your own dreams, many, even those who love you may try to hold you back.
But continue to walk your own path, do not let people influence your thoughts and values in a negative way.
Walking your own path won't be easy, but rewarding. 
Some days will be better than others, and some worse. Do not give up, remember that you have to fight for what you want sometimes. 

It's extremely hard to do something you don't like nor care about, every day.
When you like what you're doing, you can throw off your quilt each morning in happy anticipation of the new day and fill the days of others with joy, which is contagious. 
This way you will inspire others to emasculate their dreams, which leads to the fact that YOU can change the world.

You know what?!
Even if you make big mistakes, if you are wrong in almost everything, life will still be an amazing adventure. You can go to bed at night and know that you gave everything, you gave all your best and that your effort meant something. And when you wake up the next day you will look forward to a life that is beautiful and exciting as you ever had dreamed of. 
Look at the little thing, we touch peoples lives simply by existing. 

If you follow the voice of your heart and use your head, you can never be wrong!! 


As Al Pachino says in Scarface - "The World is Yours" 

Bavaram in ast:Faramoush mikonam ... Hamin o bast!

" Vaseye man kafie in ke To az Man khatereh dari ... be yadeshon ke miyofti vaseye Man vaght mizari... Hamin khobe! 
Hamin khobe ke, ba inke soragh az man nemigiri vali ta harfe man mishe ye lahze toye khodet miri... "

ShaVinnyT. The uncertainty.

9th of April 2011. 
It has almost been 2 years since my brother disappeared.
I have had a difficulty dealing with his disappearance, I went from having hope to not accepting what has happened, to being angry then sad, blaming myself and what I could've done differently to prevent this misery from my brother and the rest of my family. Today I have no idea of what I'm feeling about it, I don't know if I should have hope or not. All I know is that I miss him, his place in my life is empty and nothing or no one can replace that. I think the only way I can really believe or feel anything about this is if I get some kind of prof that he's alive, or he's coming back or that he is dead...

This uncertainty is what is tearing us all apart, but my family are staying strong for each other or at least we all are trying.
   Nights when I dream about him it's always the same scenario but in different places and with different people. It's always a warm place, and it's crowded, either he's hiding and only letting me know that he's around or everybody knows his back and they are all laughing with tremendous joy and I come up and bitch slap him across his face and hit him as much as I can and I cry and then I smile and ask Why?!?
The morning after when I wake up, I usually get angry, sad and confused at the same time cause his presence still feels real and I know that it isn't. Because, I still don't know anything, where he is, dead or alive. I just don't know. All I know he isn't anywhere to be found. Some days are more frustrating than others.

The other day my mother was talking about my parents plans about maybe buying a house, in the middle of our conversation she asks me ; If we move, how will your brother find us? 
When she asks me stuff like that it's like she's stabbing my heart and she's doing it slowly.
I have tried different approaches, tried to make her realize that he may never come back but that ended up badly several times or I've just changed the subject some way.
So this time I had to suck it up, lie and say; the internet how else, or he could just ask our relatives and family friends it's not like you're moving from this town. 

Afterwards I took our dog, my brothers dog for a walk. I walked for an hour or so and I just cried and cried. Because of the fact that I had to lie and that I don't know what to believe myself and that my mother still isn't willing to try to accept it, I can't imagine how a mother feels about loosing a child. This situation is just fucked up!!!
When the first snow came this winter, she looked out of the kitchen window and said: I hope he's not freezing out there... 

Wish I had some kind of a power so I could do something about this situation :(

I just have to keep on living, and keep on missing until some kind of sign of him shows up...

Love you and miss you Sh. V. T

¡The Wall!

Recently I have discovered a new trait about myself,  a trait that I never thought I would own.
Don't think that I'm liking this trait, let me describe it for you in a couple of words; 

Heartless
Numb
Careless
Ice cold

How I discovered this trait was by giving a person that I barely knew from high school a chance to get to know me, hang out with me and know my thoughts. 
This I decided to do after a year and a half pushing people away and not letting anyone to come near.
I came to notice that I am being very superficial with this person, I do tell him the truth about everything and myself but I'm not letting HIM in. 
As a person he is unexplainably sweet and kind, at times he is too kind. He gives me compliments I'm not used to hearing, he treats me with respect and always making sure that I'm okay and telling me to let him know if the says or does anything wrong. 
What man does that these days? 
He has his flaws too of course, nobodies perfect. The way he thinks when it comes to the ladies doesn't seem real. 
And I think this way because I have loads of guy-friends and I have ex boyfriends which were great but I sum it up by saying : They are guys they have a total different way of thinking... but this guy is somehow proving me wrong. I like to joke and say that he watches way too many movies, cause guys like that don't exist nowadays. Until it upset him, so I never said that again hehe

So let me get to the issue here, I have trust issues and I have become very cold as a person.
I can be kind, a goofball and kind of caring but that's it. I realized I now have a problem letting people in, I have always given people a chance to show me who they really are, and this guys is trying but I'm not embracing it. 
The other day he asked if we are cool, it had been days since we talked, and I said of course we are why wouldn't we be? he said: "You not like other girls, girls usually always text or call or reply really fast and ask tons of questions but you don't.  You just answer when you feel like it, you barely contact me and yet you say you like to hang out with me. And when we hang out, you never give me a real answer for me to understand where YOU are in your thoughts or what YOU feel. I feel pathetic like I'm the girl and you're the guy."

I never thought that I would be THAT person. The careless, whatever, not gonna put an effort into talking to a person who is ohw so amazingly kind. 
Without realizing it I have taken all my feelings put them in a box, taken the box put it way back behind the ice-creams in the freezer inside of my body and built a thick and massive brick wall in front of that freezer where no one can get in. I guess it will take a lot for me to get those feelings back inside my heart where they belong. Someone has to literally take down the brick wall, find the box somewhere in the back of the freezer take it out and let it melt. 
It will take a miracle to bring me back, or thats what I feel today... 
By shutting off my feelings I feel more alive? can I say that? I take my decisions by just thinking and not feeling if its good or bad. 
Some ways it pretty much sucks, because I never thought that this would be a trait I would have to become so careless. 

I just have to work on it, and I'm not ready nor want a relationship either so it doesn't really matter, it's just that I really don't want to hurt anyone by being like this. 
Hopefully I will soon stop being heartless and just learn to use my heart a bit less.... hmm :/

Reposting this song, cause now I can somewhat relate :) 

Thoughts that may not make any sense

Is life a continuous wheel of suffering?
When is it that a person can feel real immensity of joy? That is what we all are striving for, feeling happiness, joy and euphoria!?!
Lets say that someone has 'the perfect life', a good carrier, wonderful partner, all the love they can handle, food, warmth, material things to simply survive in the world and etc.
Is this person genuinely happy?

My thought is that a human being is never satisfied nor happy with Life. She always wants more and more.
The will/the wanting. Is the source of what drives people forward, always wanting more, which leads to dissatisfaction.
It is in the nature of the will that it can never be satisfied and always blindly must grope for satisfaction.
The wanting basically never stops, the human being wants more from her work,  her love, her partner, society and mother nature...
Basically the humans essence is The Will... ?!?!?
I believe that the only escape a person can have from their will is through art; painting, music, dancing and etc
My personal escape is through music (sometimes dancing). When you are in the rhapsody of music you can disconnect and in a way turn off the button of all your wanting.

I could've said love, knowing that I am / was a sucker for love, but recently I realized that you always want more and more from love. It could be because of the pleasure of being loved or loving someone or even the pleasure of sex, that brings a certain kind of satisfaction which lies in the human nature. Through love, you constantly want to feel a certain high,  you want to feel that unexplainable extraordinary feeling all the time and once you have tasted the fine flavor of love, its never enough. We drive ourself crazy to get more from another human being for introducing that deep feeling we can't give ourselves. So I don't think love is the answer to happiness, it's just a comfortableness which could make life a bit easier or worse.
That's why I exclude love from this topic.

I guess existence is based on the present, which constantly disappears. Because life is a constant change which no one, no thing nor no time can stop. That is why this constant change is the reason for not feeling tranquillity and happiness throughout life. 
I have both read and talked to different types of people about this subject, as a conclusion they all say:
"People can't feel the real joy of life just by breathing, the only time you feel 'the joy' we all are searching for is through intoxication to feel a high by injecting something into the body we own. It could be everything from alcohol to different types of drugs. Only then you will feel the joy, the euphoric and happy feeling we are searching for by existing and living. "

Why is that?
I wish I could answer that question but unfortunately I can't.
For now I just have to continue to wonder until life or my personal experiences maybe will give me some answers... or not.

Ending this post with a little quote from Schopenhauer (even if I don't agree with all his philosophy) ;
"Happiness in the present, yet no man has known - if not as drunk"