Why is that some people try to embrace places, things that matter and people in their life when it's all gone?
Why is it so hard to see and appreciate people and small things in life nowadays, when it's right in front of you?
I'm not saying I'm any good at it myself... but I at least try, try to put effort in keeping people near that had some input in my life, made me feel and that I care about, I try to enjoy moments and places I experience.
Because you never know, what the next minute or second will bring...
There are some people on this place called Earth that are so confused within themselves, that they don't see the people they hurt around them, who care for them and who love them. And in some cases they realize and really see those persons when its too late. Either the person got fed up and don't want anything to do with the 'confused person' who hurt them way to many times, or they'll literally be gone...dead!
At that point, there is nothing you can say or do... it'll just eat you up from the inside; sorrow, pain, regrets and despair.
In my last post, I wrote about the war against myself... so I do know, it's hard sometimes to cope with other people when you can't control your mind, thoughts and feelings, but those people that can be annoying, and are always around, even if they're not near by, those are the ones that will be there for me when I really NEED someone, to talk to, to hold, to just listen or just to show me that they just are(don't know if that makes any sense).
I think every single person has a struggle within themselves... so if there are people that come into your life and wanna care for you, love you, be there for you, listen to you, cry with you, laugh with you... why don't you just let them and try to put as much effort into that person?!
Don't push them away because of your own struggle, let them in instead... because true friends, true love, true human connection and emotions are the ones that are always pure and shows their ugly faces, they are raw and naked.
If there is a person coming into to your life and sees every good and bad thing about you and still wants to stick around, that's a person you should cherish in this strange and cold world!!
My point with all this is, if you know there is a person or persons in your life that have seen every single part of you and stuck around despite your flaws, and you took them for granted and you still are.
I will tell you this; One day without you realizing it, that person wont be able to take things you put them through, one day that person will not be around anymore, and your gonna miss that person, one day you will feel the empty space that person left behind, that one day you can't do anything about it.
Maybe you will find another friend who you will bare your soul to, but it wont be that same person!
FYI, I'm not talking about people who have trouble letting people in, I'm talking about people who open up let people in, share a lot and then push people away just because of their own insecurity.
There's a line in one of my favorite songs that I can relate to this kind of situation, which says;
"You wanted my attention, but denied my affection...tell me now where was my fault in loving you with my whole heart?"
I myself can relate to this, but this time, this post is for a couple of my closest ones who have been and are going through some stuff, and having a hard time, and dealing with it in different ways... it breaks my heart to see them be in such pain, feeling an huge amount of unfairness and feeling confused when their love and care haven't been nothing but genuine and pure...
So if you decide to let someone in, do it for real and genuinely other wise, seriously don't even bother! Specially if you see that the person is real towards you. Otherwise you will cause one type of many heartbreaks either as a friend or as a boy/girlfriend.
And that I guess that is also a heavy load to carry...
