"Flauwas fo meh, ouw yu shouldnt have!"

Flauwas fo meh =) 

I work at a Patient - Hotel at the Medical University Hospital in Lund, Sweden.
My job was one of the reasons for writing my first blogpost.
At this hotel there are 3 kinds of patients.
We have Cancer patients, Kids with serious heart conditions (who needs surgery) and Obstetrical ward where I see tiny little new born aliens (babies) every day!
There are patients that effect my thoughts and my mood for the better every single day, and makes my job worth doing.
Fyi, I clean their rooms, make their beds etc.

Today, one of the cancer patients gave me flowers :)
He said, since I started working there I made his stay a bit more pleasant considering the circumstances, and that I remind him of princess Leia from Star Wars when I braid my hair, haha!
He said, if he could he would ask me to marry him but he doesn't know how much longer he will live. Heart breaking!
I was lost for words, even though he usually doesn't understand a word I say, so I just smiled and said thank you.... :/
Mr.S definitely made my day!!

I call him Mr.S because I don't know his name, I just know it starts with a S.
Mr.S, has leukemia, he is 29 years old and can barley speak english or swedish.
He has been in and out of the hospital for months now, one of my colleagues told me that his been there for a long time even before I started to work there.
Since I started he has checked out twice with 3 days intervals and then he's back. :(
I really hope he gets better...

Really?!

I'll will write more about my work some other time.  (:


Dedicate these to Mr.S!

every little bit hurts.

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try

every night is the same...

My soul is crying.

Wraaaaaaahhh!

"Hell is empty and all the devils are here." - William Shakespeare

" See me, touch me, give me, want me.
Feed me, fuck me, trust me, love me.
This whole world is cold and ugly.
What we are is low and lovely. "

Luenell!

Cracks me up every single time!

what would you do?

a woman at my job randomly asked me:

'Lets say you have EVERYTHING, exactly everything you want and need.
You have a job, money, house, car, husband, children and you travel a lot to different countries... but you don't have Love!
You feel like your house isn't your home, your husband doesn't show you that he cares for you or loves you, doesn't hug you or kiss you.
No comfort, no joy, no sleeping in each others arms, he doesn't listen to you just to listen and say everything's gonna be okey. You are just two persons living in one house.

... so tell me, what would you do, if you had everything except love and happiness in your life?'

Took me awhile to answer her question... and I got that she was actually asking about what she should do with her "life with no love" :/
heartbreaking!
She has some tough decisions to make specially when there are kids involved...

What would You do?

People who know me, knows that I always relate songs to all different types of situations...
I think it's some kind of a sickness that I have.